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I'll be waiting in the car

ok

[and true enough she is, waiting out on the curb a handful of minutes later, the radio on low (classic rock is how carol flies, none of that poppy crap here) as she drums thumbs on the wheel in time.

she's dressed cool in jeans and a tank and aviator shades, her hair still a shaved mess courtesy of the kid. she had half a mind to turn up in her spangly uniform just to embarrass him, but it's too warm for that.

so carol waits, for the telltale signs that the kid has turned up (chaos, destruction, loud noises, food shortages...)]

[after skulking through the back yard like bad manners, Badou emerges from hedges and fences withhis hands shoved deep into the pockets of a ragged, city-weathered brown coat]

[the black hat that's become customary is pulled low, but it's not low enough to hide the fact hithat the bandage over his eye is spotted with blood, heartily fucked with]

[the last difference Carol might notice is the lit cigarette caught between his teeth, dropping ash onto that manky, roadkill coat]

[he of course mentions none of this, muttering a "Yo" as he grabs at the door handle]

[carol, of course, is having none of this -- she may have resolved to back off from hereon out but this is a little much.

her first move is to swipe the cigarette from his mouth, fixing him with a look that's equal concern and stern, superhero-y disapproval.]

The hell happened to you?

[the swipe has him twitching, teeth staying half-bared, like there's still a filter to gnaw on]

[shortly]

Busted my stitches. Y'gonna finish that?

[slams the car door closed as he sits down, hunching in the seat]

Gonna go get them fixed, I hope.

[she watches him hunker down, and as ever carol is absolute shit at hiding what she's thinking: is he okay? is something up? what do I do, what do I say?

she settles for tossing the cig out onto the asphalt and starting the car.]

There's no smoking in my ride, kid. That crap stinks.

[it's not that he's ignorant to those questions in the air, or even the concern radiating from her; it's just that it's hard to focus (his eye is throbbing, itchy and uncomfortable, and his lungs feel -- they feel too clear, like they've been feeling too much lately)]

[he'd like to bitch about the lost cigarette (he could'a saved it), he'd like to snap back at her about establishing those trenches he keeps trying to dig between them]

[but in the end he just grunts, hoping she'll start driving sooner rather than later]

Edited 2013-08-04 23:42 (UTC)

[mouth twisting ruefully (back off, carol, leave him alone, he can handle his own stuff), she heaves a quiet sigh, tells him--]

Seatbelt.

[before thumping down off the curb and taking off.

nowhere near as fast as the last time they did this, and part of it's because carol herself feels mired, like she's stuck in tar and can't break out of it. it's the kid weighing on her, yeah, but it's also everything else.

she's so sick of feeling useless here.

she doesn't say anything. just drives.]

[the tension from the driver's seat seeps into him, which is frankly better than the itchingtwitching energy he's putting out; Carol makes him feel fucked up, mostly because he keeps watching himself fuck her up]

[he's not sorry, and he doesn't pity her -- really, it just drives a lot of things home about him, about her, about them together]

[it doesn't stop him from mumbling]

It ain't a big deal. It's... [he stumbles, wordless (worthless)] ...they itch, an' I itched 'em.

Not a great plan of action.

[it's half-exasperated, fond, dumb -- the way she wishes she could be with him all the time. and she feels stupidly grateful that he told her without prompting, that he gave her that much, when she knows he doesn't exactly have much to give.

she stops to give way to another car and glances over at him.]

You wanna eat after?

[after whatever it is you're doing that's none of my business so I'm not gonna ask.]

Okay.

[dirty fingernails curl at the edge of the seat; he's burnt out from this long long weekend, this too hot sun, and he's tired of fighting]

[the smell of cigarettes from that coat's as much a fog to his head as it is disquieting to his heart]

[he can't help it, and the seats are too new and pristine to find a thread to pick or a a hole to gouge larger; his hand rakes up beneath his bandage, trying to get at that painful itch, and he hiccups a breath]

Hey.

[the road's clear but she doesn't go, and her voice is as soft as her touch when she reaches out to put a hand on his arm, the one up at his face.

it's just her fingertips, barely there, urging him to stop rather than telling.

her face is questioning, but by now she's not expecting an answer.]

[the hand flinches down, immediately, and his eye flickers over to her, a bit too disconnected]

[and, true to Carol's intuition regarding Badou, a tumble of words falls out]

I dunno how long it's gonna take. She might not be there. I should'a texted, I guess.

[the doctor, kimishima, is carol's first guess at who "she" could be, and she hopes that's the case because... good, okay. he's sorting out his own shit, like he keeps trying to tell her.]

You wanna do it now? Someone else can probably handle it if she's not.

[after a brief pause--]

Otherwise we can just go eat.

Why the hell else would I wanna go ta the LEU?

[he's growing jittery again; he wants a cigarette back between his fingers]

...Just drop me off an' wait for a sec. I'll see if she's there.

[unspoken; I don't want someone else, I don't even want her, but she's had her fingers in my head once already, hasn't she]

Text her, I meant.

[she throws a smirk his way, a veiled reassurance, or it's trying to be one, and starts driving again.]

But it's fine. Sure. I don't mind waiting for whatever needs doing.

[would like to go in with him for whatever needs doing, but he'd probably hate it, carol thinks. she can bum a magazine from the waiting room and sit in the car, or something. whatever he wants is fine.

god, this is hard.]

[Badou grunts again, baited back into tense silence by the painful pricking in his face (and the pricking in his chest)]

[when they get to the LEU, he slams the car door again on the way out, taking off at a jog and not looking back]

[he's gone a good fourty-five minutes, and doesn't send any texts]

[in the end carol decided on stealing a book of crosswords from the bullpen, and she's currently on the third one (the first two given up in frustration halfway through).

it's hard to focus through the worry beating a tattoo against the inside of her skull (skull, ribcage, heart maybe), because it's taking a while, surely it shouldn't take this long, but every time she checks her phone it's hardly been any time at all.

she's got her sunglasses up in her hair and is scribbling an ugly, exaggeratedly pointy-toothed skrull in the margins when he's finally done.

when she straightens in her seat and looks over at the doors it's like a prairie dog poking up out of its hole.]

[eventually, the prairie dog will spot the stray; he shambles out considerably slower than how he went in, face extremely pale, even sicker looking with the bright new bandages on]

[his heart still feels like it's beating too fast, and he twitches roughly and looks at the sun as if he'd somehow forgotten about it, drawing his hat lower]

[the car door is yanked open without preamble, and he sits down with sneakers up on that nice, new seat, making it creak with small, almost unnoticeable tremors]

[it's a rough mutter]

...Go, already.

[before he puts both hands behind his head, elbows resting on his knees and squeezing in, creating a cage of his own limbs to sit in and try to breathe]

Edited 2013-08-05 13:21 (UTC)

[wordlessly, she caps her pen and tosses the book onto the passenger side floor, but carol doesn't go yet. because every time he can't breathe, every time she can see it anyway, her own lungs try to stopper up in sympathy.

there's nothing she can think of to say that won't make things shitty again (like always), and maybe this'll make things shitty too, but she can't just sit here and be useless when he looks like that.

so--

a hand settles on his back, between his shoulder blades over that shitty new-old coat he's dug up somewhere, rubbing gently once, twice, then stays there. easy to shrug off. expecting it.

carol keeps her eyes firmly on the steering wheel.]

Edited 2013-08-05 13:42 (UTC)

[and maybe for the first time, he doesn't flinch to her touch; he shudders under it, but not away]

[it seems like a sick, twisted joke, to have wrapped himself in his brother and then proceeded to go looking for him in all the wrong darknesses, like the shadow beneath that mound of bandages on his face and the pockets of this shitty fucking coat]

[he's not sure what he expected to find, other than pain and empty space; he's not sure how to cope with everyday atrocity and missing his brother like drowning]

[Dave sometimes initially forgot his birthdays; he burned cakes and he rarely had enough money for a good gift, but they were always together, one day where the city could wait for saving, and Badou got to have the full force of his brother's heart]

[it's jittered out, through rubber banded, snapwire jaws]

I'm, I'm h-hungry...

[he's always, always hungry; starving with famine, in more ways that just his body]

[what she really wants is to lean over the gearbox and pull him in and fucking hug him, like she would with any other stupid kid who was in and out of the hospital, stitched-up and bandaged-up and keyed-up so goddamn always. but the fact that he's allowing this much feels like a small victory, a step, at least to carol's mind, and that's good enough.

she rubs his back a couple more times, now, and squeezes the fabric of the jacket gently. an I've got you, somebody's here for you, even if it's not somebody you want. you're okay.]

Okay. All right. We'll go eat.

[and she starts the car one-handed, looks at him for a second.

swallows around everything that's caught up in her throat (worry fear anger anxiety, worthlessness, and that overwhelming affection for him that pricks her every time she tries to get near) and lets her hand fall away.]

Honeybee okay?

[later, he'll think on that touch to his back, and how the contact was dulled by the heavy, stupid coat. later, he'll think about how he still doesn't trust Carol, and wonder where and how she fits into the bullshit life he now has to live without him to trust instead]

[it's hard to understand a heart that spans that wide, a care that burrows that deep, when those kinds of things are relegated to such a rare and sharp commodities in the Underground]

[there's a ducking motion from the caged boy that seems affirmative enough; he won't speak another word, won't make another sound (another genetic defect -- Nails are loud and bothersome when content, silent and pliable when not)]

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